AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!

It's been a while since I've had so much free time on my Fridays!

Finally I don't have morning chem lesson on saturdays so I don't need to chiong anything on Friday nights!

Also I have a empty weekend so I can stay home on Sat and Sun !!!!!!

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL WHEN I'M HOME.

Anyway I'm falling sick, or I am already sick. lol.

It's irritating when you have that 'want-sneeze-but-cannot-sneeze' feeling.

And the facial expression at that moment is just.... epic.

My mom bought a weighing machine, do you call that a weighing balance or sth?

I know it's normal for every household to have it but I don't have a weighing machine in my whole 17+ yrs of life in my house lol.

So i've been playing with it but it has been depressing HAHAHAHA.

Cut your thoughts about " Sam is not fat " lol.

Every girl has their ideal weight!!!!!

Yeah so before I had the weighing balance, I only took my weight every six months in the school lol.

And after every holiday I always put on weight.

Nvm lah.... food more important.

The past 2 weeks have been really quiet with the OGLs gone.

But I kinda enjoy it, A LOT.

Every lesson feels like consultation and the more quiet students(LIKE MEEEEE) can finally get to voice out my doubts.

Usually those loud people will just KS my questions then I don't wanna ask alrdy.

Assholes.

Thanks to all of those loud people then the quiet-students-who-are-actually-not-that-quiet are labelled as unresponsive students by the teachers.

In fact, many of my tutors were kinda surprised that the 'quiet' bunch of people actually ask questions.

I feel kinda proud of myself for answering so many GP questions becuz GP tutorial is 1.5hrs and it's a zombifying session. So when Mr Lim ask qns, no one really wanna respond cuz either zoning out or just dun wan say.

Then I abit buay tahan cuz I'm a generally NICE and CONSIDERATE person, so I know how saddening it is for Mr Lim if his students aint interested in his lessons.

Moreover, he's sick so I decided to answer his questions lor.

做好人sia.... will tio 4D anot?

Somemore the tutor will put more attention on us and like weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Cuz i'm those student who always kana neglected.

School life has really been hectic, everyday is just go school, go home do hwk and the cycle repeats.

I wanted to laugh so badly when a kranji junior posted on FB that "JC life is so hard" when he/she is just admitted into JC.

Srsly bro/sis.... really?

I'm still balancing well but I guess everything will just mess up as I go on.

Aiya, every year also liddat one lah,

I will start off really well and then by the end of term 1,

I will start screwing up and not doing my work.

Ok not say literally not doing but I always don't achieve what i really wanted to complete.

I don't want to imagine what's gonna happen when the OGLs come back to class next week.

Surely there'll be some idiot who will answer "Ok" then other dumbasses will either respond with "alright" or "K is for keller... we love keller....blablablabla"

Then I'll be like,

lol, totally.

Can't imagine how much the OGLs needa catch up.

Have fun suffering guys!!!!!!

Anw I'll really take my time to enjoy this friday night.

WHAT A LUXURY TO SIT HERE AND STARE AT THE COMP.

On another note,

Valentine's day is coming and it's the only day when i'll accumulate all my PMS mood in the whole year and show it on that day.

Honestly I don't know if I'll really get cranky on that day but I think I will lol.

Furthermore it's a tuesday and I can't hide myself at home shit.

Don't need me to say but every girl wishes to be with somebody on V-day one lah.

And I know it applies to all girls so don't deny it.

Well I'm not totally at the far end of the foreveralone meter.

In my whole 17+ yrs, I've been out with a guy on V-day before hahahahahaha,

but that's too long ago ._.

I've moved on (obviously).

I think I'm quite a good catch last time, I SAID LAST TIME , STOP JUDGING.

But I donno what I've evolved into.

Ok I think I know, I've involved into this thing below.

lololol, not that I'm seeking pity in the form of ppl telling me "sam you can find your partner one lah...., priest... your looks not bad mah"

Priest lah, you think so easy meh?

I wouldnt want a partner who's okay with me becuz of looks.

To be honest I think my personality is too much like a guy...

By that I don't mean the lecherous thoughts of a guy, but... you know lah.

I'm the tio friendzoned type of girl LOL.

Kinda sad but at the same time sibeh heng too (LOLOLOL)

When school ends on 14 Feb, I'm gonna chiong home, pretend that I'm rushing home to go out on a date but actually I'm going home to.... study.

MISERABLE LAH SAM, MISERABLE.

FYI I'm not despo :)

If I did sound despo, it's..... 30% true.

Reason: Becuz I'm turning 18 and my dad has been pestering me about why I no BF whenever he's drunk.

I should probably go find another foreveralone and go lim zui together.

ANYWAY AFTER 14 FEB,

Facebook will have all those annoying pictures of couples popping up in my newsfeed.

There'll be pics of polaroids, food, gifts from bf/gfs, etc.

Then I'll be sitting infront of my laptop screen with Facebook,

Anyway I will go cont my friday night now.

Until next time.

FK YOU ALL YOU PEOPLE WHO HAVE A DATE ON VALENTINES DAY, IMMA STAY HOME AND ROLL MYSELF INTO A BALL.

YES IM JEALOUS I ADMIT IT NOW.

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL, not.

天高地厚

K it's been kinda a long time since i've posted.

There're bound to be many valuable thoughts to be spoken but I forgot them all.

Let me just jot down some events before I go into talking about life again >_>

CNY eve:

Went to LX/LK's hse!

I brought my hwk over to do while the rest were having fun.

#lifeofajc2kid

I can tell that they're waiting for me to finish my work and then go play tgt.

Sadly, I took a long time to finish haha.

Introduced Werewolf to them, very fun but too bad we had too little people.

7 is just the min number to start playing Werewolf.

Then lou hei and played bridge,

had a hard time teaching.

Well, i took a very long time to learn too, haha.

CNY Day 1:

Went to TSL's hse, first thing I did when I reached there is to chiong for the Wii lol.

Even though I have a Wii at home, nothing beats playing with other people.

I didn't even bother to eat lol, all I did was to Mario and Band Hero.

Then idk do what and then LK suggested drinking games.

So we played drinking games like Indian Poker, etc etc.

I don't get how my dad can gulp down Beer like it's bubble tea lol.

But I must start drinking soon so next time I won't get into trouble.

COUGH.

We're all growing up quickly and I'm turning 18 this year.(gawd)

Usually it's just us 4 ah lians plus our ah gua LK.

Ok in the past he used to be the ah gua but now he's an 182cm uncle.

Tan's Blood haha, FOREVERALONE.

As we grew up, we got closer to other cousins as well,

like become more gum.

Foreveralone Tan Ah Lian(s)

Just to be an asshole, I photoshopped my sis's face

(you get what I mean)

Me and Fat Ah Lian.

Foreveralone!

My nephew Donavan!

I usually hate kids but he's an exception.

He likes me a lot wahahahahha.

Guess who?

It's the motherbeeping cat who always lurks around my corridor.

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Nathaniel's 18 Bday!

Surprise! (or not...)

Random Photo LOL

Maria does her work beside the fan, lucky woman.

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4th Feb:

Went to Alvin korkor's housewarming.

It feels kinda weird becuz he's the same Bei4 Fen4 as me and yet he's married and alrdy have a 3 yr old son, Donavan(who loves me a lot)

Ahhh, how time flies.

I didn't wanna go sing KTV after the housewarming at first,

but in the end I went lah...

Didn't regret going but also somehow regret lol.

Had lots of fun in the Ten Dollar Club @ Toa Payoh.

Waiting for LK to upload the video kekeke.

I don't understand how people go to KTV to train their singing.

Okay maybe I understand, everyone has a 明星梦 lah.

I'm not a good singer so I basically go to KTV and shout lol.

De-stress.

Sang all the chinese oldies that we listened to in our childhood.

唱出心声!

Ok yeah so ...

so far I'm still coping well with JC work, didn't lag behind for any subject.

But how long will this discipline last?

Hahahahah, there're bound to be weekends that I'll be occupied on both Sat and Sun,

then I can't complete my work and lag behind.

Finally I'm doing something in Eco Club,

for the past whole year, eco club feels like a place for me to stone.

I'm lagging behind Running Man, but I guess it's no problem because I can always find time in a empty weekend to catch up.

Hmmmmmmm,

I guess I'm in position to tell others what to do, do I?

I have probably enough issues to overwhelm myself,

sometimes I really wanna 见死不救 but can't bring myself to do it.

I've so many things I wanna say but I can't.

Ok so now's the time when I'll use short phrases to describe about the things I wanna say but I can't fully say it.

FUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOU, Time out, Sorry, Idiots, Okay..., Heh, WHY YOU...., bloody fking dumb, I don't live up to that, Do you even care, I get it now.

>_>

We should always be mindful of our body language, you'll never know how much body language can throw off someone into deep thoughts.

I'm totally in the mood of Lighters by Eminem.

You know, that kind of angry/unfair/standing up from all the crap mood.

我们还有很多梦要做，还有很多明天要走。

不能让我自己在这一刻被打倒，

勇敢站起来是对的，但我却想永远呆在这种地步，矛盾啊。

When your thoughts clash and you can't decide on which side to take.

明知道...

When you do something like that, it pisses me off, god damn badly.

能不能给我一个交待?

还是把这些事收进左边的口袋吧

GOD DAMN.

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Anyway there has been this random number from Taiwan which keeps calling my phone and looking for "ah qian".

Country code 886 wtf.

I wonder if Singtel leaks out customer info leh, really.

This never happened to me when I was still using starhub.

There has been many cases of unknown numbers calling my hp ever since I've started using singtel/iphone.

Maybe got some loser shit give a random number to ah long and just nice that random number belongs to me.

Idk.

Or maybe I had my old phone no. directed to my new phone and so there're ppl calling in.

But calling from Taiwan is not a valid reason.

There're like 8-9 calls alrdy.

zzzzzz.

Feel like picking up and saying in chinese/hokkien:

我不是你要找的人, 你爸爸！

K I rly donno what else to blog about anymore.

Will come back when time allows and when I have more things to say.

Probably just one of those periods when I feel very mixed up within and there's no time left for myself to think about things.

Didn't go to school today, was sick.

Well, not rly, more of my head feeling like 99kg and my centre of gravity shifted to the tip of my head.

Dizzzzzy ~

@_@

my neck and shoulder also felt sore.

Went out to see doctor today arnd 3-4pm and the weather is being a total bitch.

Made my 99kg head became 999kg.

Bought a tub of ice cream and ate it to cool down.

Actually i forgot what i wanted to blog about.

nevermind.

I'm not being a bitch at you, I serve as a fucking alert or an indicator to let you think twice on what you are doing.

Nobody is going to be that nice or sympathetic.

I can't stand skinship between friends also.

I have zero tolerance if my friends lay on my shoulder or sth.

I'll be like "bitch, look where you're laying!"

It's fine if we're taking photos but you can't do any skinship stuff outside of the camera range!

):

I'm not even fine with friends putting their arms over my shoulders.

lol i rmb there was an incident whereby shiman was sitting beside me and slping on the mrt,

then her head keep leaning left and right.

Beside her was some bangala and she leaned on him LOL.

Embarrassing enough, i pulled her back to center.

When she came and lean on my shoulder, I pushed her head away LOL.

Im such a bad person ahahahahahaha.

Yeah and I rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly rly can't stand ppl who .......

Zzz I've been wanting to blog ever since Monday but I was too busy!

I would say that my time table is abit errrrr.....

Thursday and Friday is like super packed while tues and wed are like damn slack.

Luckily chem tcher changed to Ms Elaine Koh sia, srsly, what she taught in one week is like what I learnt in one whole year under Mrs Tong >_>

Bio tcher also chnged to Ms Ng, I know she's a good teacher but then she don't really teach much leh.

I prefer Mrs Nga, who does more classroom teaching so that we can understand btr.

Ms Ng is like, just go through answer then she don't rly use the whiteboard and I can't rly visualise all the cheem shit.

And Ms Ng focuses on tutorial too much, I'd rather listen to tcher teaching about the chapter rather than just keep going through tutorial and learn nth from it.

Perharps the bio chapter now is just a boring chapter and Ms Ng got not much opportunities to show her skills in teaching bah, i hope la.

Mr Ling as always lor, I know he's a good teacher but then I think the problem lies with the class.

The class is generally too smart and ppl like me (the avrg) always kana neglected.

Overall the 1st week of school is so exhausting!

Even though I'd finished almost all my holiday hwk, I still find everyday damn busy!

As of right now, I have to go back to school every Sat 10-12pm for extra chem lessons.

I don't mind since my chem really cui.

But it overlapped with my math tuition at 9-11am, so I bo bian needa go for the sunday 4-6pm math class.

After attending 2 classes of math at the tuition centre, i don't think classroom teaching is conducive for me, yes I do learn something but somehow I don't really find it good for me.

Sincerely, I don't rly catch math fast so I really need to think very long. I don't wanna slow down the class and I also very 爱面子 one mah, I dont like to show that I very dumb in math.

(ego problem)

The tutor's attention is also not fully on 1 student.

I thought that I could learn a lot from group tuition becuz I can leech from what other ppl asked.

They thought of qns that I can never think of and i tot it will be a bonus for me.

but it never really happens there, i guess.

Furthermore, the near 1h trip forth and back pretty much wastes a lot of time.

Somemore I don't have a full day at home in the week. I'll just go crazy.

If the tuition is at 4pm, I needa leave house at 3pm and so I have to go bathe and prepare at 2pm.

Sometimes the tuition drags so let's say I'm fully released at 6.45pm, then I needa take the bus back and it's around 7.20pm alrdy!

Go back home, bathe and eat, 8pm then can do work.

So basically, 6h is gone just for the sake of tuition.

I DON'T LIKE.

Somemore it's my damn policy to stop all work after 9pm on Sundays to either blog or watch some shows to relax myself before I start the hectic week again.

I think after I clear my 4 sessions of math, I'll quit that tuition centre and find private tutor.

Ask them come my house so I don't needa spend time on transport and preparing.

Anyway, to be honest and an asshole, tuition fees are not paid by my parents so I don't need to worry too much and I can pick any form of tuition I want.

So, might as well pick the most expensive one lor (private 1-1)

Srsly, if i picked private tuition, I'd most probably spend a maximum of 3h (1h for preparing and delay, 2h for tuition).

I can save so much time and do other work and I only need to bathe once!!!!!!!

Save transport fare also.

PLUS I HATE BUSES.

I get motion sickness every now and then and it sucks.

Can u imagine going to tuition after alighting from the bus feeling all dizzy and nauseous?!

Then after tuition ends, it shld be halleluyah cuz you survived 2h of math and then U need to go take bus to go home and all the motion sickness comes again.

Sibeh cui.

I think this is JC2 life, everyday is so hectic.

I really need that 1 full day at home before I step into another new week.

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Have you ever reached a point whereby you get sick and tired of everything, even the people around you?

*I'm being honest*

It's like, sometimes you have friends that you see everyday and friends that you see once in a while.

It's natural for me to get bored of friends who I see everyday but I won't say that I want them out of my life.

It's just that they become part of the definition of my very own self.

I think it's okay and understandable to get a 'so-so' or 'ok.....' response from friends that you see everyday.

It happened to me la.

Like sometimes I chat w/ the other girls in whatsapp,

I'll reply in a more enthu way when I'm talking to friends I don't see everyday.

Whereas to friends who I see everyday (e.g cass) right, it's like "Ok, can"

Like I can reply shiman in anyway I want to becuz we've known each other for so long.

I do realise this problem and I think it happens for everyone else too.

So, everyone and even myself, should be aware of this problem consistently and try not to give the friend that you see everyday a some-sort-of-cold-shoulder or that less enthusiastic response.

Well, at the end of the day, it may be just me.

I know I'm not very interesting and a very engaging person.

Sometimes I'd just prefer to keep shut up and give that 'heh' smile.

Mostly close friends dont even needa say anything to each other becuz they have mutual understanding.

But then when one starts to ignore without understanding, these 2 ppl may just become 最熟悉的陌生人.

It's a test of patience la, ultimately.

It's not that I'm not understanding leh, really.

It's the other party that can't understand my intentions and blames me for not being understanding enough.

So who's at fault? You tell me.

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I haven't done any CNY shopping.

Guess I'll just wear whatever I've bought on blogshops.

Now all I need is a bottom.

I think CNY becomes less exciting as we all grow up.

No matter what, I'll claim that $$$ that my parents are gonna give me to subsidise my CNY clothes.

Even if I didn't buy anything, I'm still gonna pocket that $$$$$$.

不拿白不拿吗...

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Recently I just chnged my specs.

I know it's weird but I kinda have a sense of attachment to my old specs.

So when I'm at home, I'll still change back to my old pair of specs and plus I don't rly need to see anything far at home so there's no need to wear my new specs.

Actually I'm wondering if the nose piece on ur specs actually shapes your nose.

If you wear specs ever since when you're young,

ur nose bridge may have been altered by the nose piece on ur specs.

When I touch my nose bridge now right,

there's 2 little indents at the side of the nose, at the height of in between my eyes and a bit lower.

So the top portion of my nose is probably kinda more slim than the bottom part.

LOL.

Damn, if i knew this earlier, I would have wore big specs that made my whole nose slimer and more sharp, like ang moh but minus their big nostrils.

I'll remember this well and apply it to my kid.

-evil grin-

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Damn, I almost forgot to blog about this.

MOST FKIN SCARIEST SHIT EVER THAT I COULD SHIT IN MY PANTS.

Few days ago, I slept at 1am, I remembered it clearly becuz I checked the time before I slept.

Okay so I started off with a dream A(too trivial, shall not mention),

and then the dream changed scene to a scene whereby I was sleeping.

It was so real, I knew that I was sleeping in that same position.

Okay, so when the dream changed scene, I thought that I'd woken up from dream A, but actually I didn't. IT'S LIKE A FKING INCEPTION LEVEL 2.

So while I was in that scene where I was sleeping on my bed, I tried to move but I couldn't.

My brain was wide awake and I know I repeatedly commanded my body to move.

I couldn't even move the smallest muscle like my fingers or toes.

I could see everything in the room in the same position before I slept.

It's so fking scary that I can't even describe it.

I was so scared that I suspected that it was 鬼押床 leh!!

At one moment in time while I was in my dream, I suddenly came to a conclusion that I may still be in a dream and so I commanded my eyelids to open, and they opened!!!!!!

I'm 100% sure that this time I'm in the reality and I even slapped myself to make sure.

I was covered in cold sweat!

It was so damn fking scary.

Maybe from the way I describe, it's not scary and it just inception to you.

But when you really experience it urself,

you'll find the part where you can't move the scariest !!

BECUZ IT FELT SO REAL!

It was as if it's you in the reality world and you can't move a single muscle.

I was so scared to fall back to sleep that I had to go find my mom lol.

The next day, I was also damn scared to fall asleep for fear of the same experience happening again.

Luckily, it didn't happen because I pushed my body to its limits( by that I mean by staying awake for longer than I should be) and I fell straight to sleep the moment I lay on my bed, no dreams at all.

If the same experience happens again, I will not hesitate to sleep beside my Guan Yin altar.

And I felt so relieved when I heard that Denise had the same experience as me and it happened to her multiple times.

At least I'm not the only one and there's someone who really understands how it felt like!

If anyone of you experienced it before, must tell me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Maybe I should go research abt Lucid Dreaming, so I can control my dreams and be the king of the lala world.

Ahahahhahaa.

Maybe after this experience, I've awakened some super power!!!!!

Pui.

It's getting late, I have a lot of things that I haven't blogged yet but I have to get my sleep!

Yozzzzz, as promised, a really long blog post.

I'm skipping homework just to blog, so wei3 da4 right?

Anyway I had enough of homework, it's like they're never ending and I don't want to do them half-heartedly.

What's the point of just doing your work for the sake of completing them?

I still thought I had quite a lot of time to do my work at the beginning of this week.

I donno how I spent my time after that then I'm left with no time.

Zzzzz.

Gah at least I touched every single piece of homework and got some portions never complete only.

I know got people who're worse off than me muahahahahah.

I should be quite safe now.

(Safe as in won't kana most scolding from tcher)

On the other hand, I have no OGL camp so I don't really have a reason to not finish my work.

>_>

And they're always those super busy people who are super actively involved in school events but they can still finish all their work on time.

Tsk, hate those people, they're the reason why the others are getting scolded.

But they quite pro ah, can manage their time so well.

Gah anyway tomorrow is the start of my JC2 life, it's gonna be a fast-paced and stressful year.

I feel that I'm not ready to take on JC2 just yet,

and to think about the fact that A level is only just 10 months away scares me.

But time waits for no one so I think there's no choice but to keep moving on.

I'll just pick up the pace as I go along.

Just celebrated Bryan's birthday yesterday.

We celebrated in advance hahahaha and I forgot that I took photos.

I'll upload them on FB sometime, someday.

Actually I had a very eventful(>_>) day yesterday.

Woke up at around 7am to prepare and meet cass to go tuition.

Hmmm, learnt about complex numbers, the tutor's teaching not too bad bah.

Then lunched with cass and I went home to prepare to go BPGHS to collect some $$$$$.

Hahha merit bursary award lah.

Yay pocket got money liao.

But cannot anyhow spend because I'm saving to go Japan after A levels!

( I don't think my parents will allow me to go but I'll just save up first!)

Saw Au Li Jun!!!!!

Long time never see her alrdy, miss her alot hahahaha.

Then chionged home to take a shower before leaving to meet that gang of people at limbang.

Surprisingly, I walked to limbang lol.

I thought I'd be so lazy that I'll take the bus.

Walking the same route to Kranji and then to Limbang brings back memories.

How I wish life was still that simple.

(O LEVEL IS A JOKE)

Anyway, after meeting with the ppl,

cass, sk and malcolm were wearing the OGL shirt.

SO EMBARRASSING.

And I donno I suay fk or what, just nice I'm wearing the red keller shirt.

Lol, they damn striking lah can.

So we set off to Bryan's house,

crashed his house and he wearing some tattered yellow shirt lolol.

We were prepared to go JP's house after crashing Bryan becuz Nat said that Bryan got alot of hwk undone and we didn't really wanna disturb him.

Furthermore, no one has rly been to Bryan's house b4 so we all thought that his house is like some forbidden city.

Who knew that Bryan actually allowed us to go into his house and so we camped there hahahah.

His room got all the One Piece posters!!!!!!!

And sth bad happened lol.

I was kinda bored and walking around his house,

then I came across a hairdryer on the side table so I picked it up and switched it on.

Just nice SK was near and I decided to disturb him w/ the hairdryer....

I aimed the hairdryer at his face and switched it on.

He got angry(not really) and then stood up to snatch the hairdryer from me.

He wanted revenge then of cuz I must fight back mah right,

then struggle struggle and he suddenly pushed the nearby fan.

Then the fan fell off the chair and broke.

One of the blades broke lol.

I think the fan quite old already that's why it broke so easily :S

And me and SK sibeh heng that the fishtank wasn't damaged if not we really need to open window and jump down.

SORRY BRYAN WONG!

So me and SK were damn damn damn damn damn guilty.

Soon after, everyone went off to UT point to eat, me and SK had no appetite at all lol.

I think SK is 100% no appetite from guilt,

I'm probably about 70%? lol

Yeah so everyone went off to eat, me and SK secretly go hunt for fans but couldn't find any suitable ones.

We still wanted to go Limbang to find if UT don't have lolol.

So in the midst of fan-hunting, someone called and the number belonged to Sean.

I was wondering why Sean would call me cuz in my whole life I don't think Sean has ever called my number once, same class for 4 yrs somemore, fail ah?

Picked up the phone then it was JP and he told us to stop fan-hunting and go back to UT lol.

Of cuz me and SK cannot just simply give up finding a new fan for Bryan becuz we will 跟自己的良心过不去。

I think it's probably the first ever time that I had guilt for dinner lol.

Yeah so me and SK decided to stop finding fans becuz we came to realise that Bryan may not like the design that we picked lol.

So we changed plan and wanted to get an apology gift.

SK suggested to get a One Piece iphone cover (cuz he didn't buy one for Bryan when he was in Japan)

So we went to Comics Connection and couldn't find any, boooooo.

Comics connection too overloaded with Kpop stuff,

pls return us manga-lovers with our manga stuff!!!!

Yup so in the end, grabbed a One Piece A4 folder and gave it to Bryan lol.

SK almost bought that ..............................

Bought gong cha for dinner( I figured that I had to eat sth even though I wasn't hungry)

and went back to Bryan's house to watch 吓到笑,

I don't really like horror movies but I think this is fine cuz it's comedy-based.

Yeah so after the movie, we took a grp photo.

When we're leaving, Bryan's mother saw the fan that me and SK broke lol.

Me and SK jitao froze when we knew that Bryan's mother saw the fan lol.

Cold sweat.

Hahaha so we all went home after that and as usual, Malcolm is my partner for going home and it kinda feels like I have an extra shadow around me whenever we go home tgt at night lol.

Cass and QH couldnt decide if they wanted to walk or take bus and it was damn dumb.

Me and Malcolm thought that we had convinced cass and QH to walk home(since their hse so near).

Yup, so QH and cass went off.

When the bus came, me and malcolm boarded it and then realise that Cass and QH was behind us LOL.

Idiots, just walk home la, house so near!!!!!

Waste $$$ take bus lol.

Then at the nxt bus stop, saw Kevin board the bus and we all laughed hahahahha.

Idk why but whatever Kevin does, it either looks stupid or dumb LOL.

It's like he can be doing something VERY normal like walking but then I'd still find it funny.

Reached home and homework marathon lor.

I swear organic chem sucks.

I HATE IT.

And I showered 4 times in a day lol >_>,

can't stand going out w/o bathing.

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Actually this holiday passed damn fast but I know that it's a long holiday.

Promos ended in like... when again?

So the PW and CL intensive period was not really intensive lah,

I counted it as a semi-holiday thingy lol.

So it means that I took a long break from studying and I'm scared that I can't pick up the momentum quickly.

Yup, but I'll try my best though.

CNY is coming and I haven't done any CNY shopping.

hais.

Anyway yesterday I was on the verge of breaking down lol,

like I had so many homework on my hands and I got super paranoid that I can't finish them all in time.

I think I was too tired becuz at that time I was awake for 20 hrs with 3h sleep.

Not that I finished all my hwk but I don't rly give a fk anymore.

Uhhhhhhhhhhh,

usually I'll wrap up every year with resolutions but I'm 1 week late this year lol.

Cuz JC start school 1 week later mah.

I wanna sort out everything before I move on to start a new school year.

In 2011, I don't really know what I was doing.

Right now, I can't even recall.

It seems like I've done a lot but there's nth really meaningful about it.

What i've been doing much in is probably academics.

I didn't really do much in CCA becuz eco club mah, do what?

To be honest, not having a CCA kinda upsets my own academic and aesthetics balance lol.

What can I do sia... JC life mah, liddat lor.

Everyday I'm studying *LMFAO shuffle music*

On the other hand, I think I've also achieved some goals bah but I forget only.

Made new friends in JC, got to know some really cool peeps.

And opened our own Holy Table.

I guess Holy table is where everyone becomes closer to each other hahahah.

HOLY TABLE IS GOOD.

And surprisingly I got a lot more closer to Malcolm, we were in the same class for 4 whole years in Kranji but didn't really talked to each other until we were in PJ.

Who knew that this blackie so annoying?

Hahahhaha... no la he not v annoying.

I think 2012 will pass at a much more faster pace, before I know it, it'll be A levels and a few more weeks, it'll be the end of A levels.

I'll really do what I want after A levels bah.

Go and get my braces, take guitar lessons, paint my wall with One Piece theme, chiong maple to level 200 and dragon nest to max level LOL.

Hahahah, enough of 2011 resolutions I guess.

Let me give myself a 2012 resolution:

1. Have the right kind of discipline (do all work but do them with the right purpose of learning)

2. Take care of my body well, can't fall sick too often

3. STOP PONTENG-ING FOR GOD DAMN SAKE.

4. Have many meaningful outings with friends, don't wanna lose contact becuz of our own work.

5. grow up mentally, so I can settle emotions myself.

6. exercise more regularly ( i really need this)

Hmmm, i can't really list out resolutions leh, like i haven't really think of them yet.

>_>

Ok lah I think I lied, it's not a long blog post.

Idk why yesterday before I fell asleep, I had so many thoughts in my head but after I wake up, i forget everything.

I really need my Kbox therapy and that's it.

Kala card promotion is on again,

it's time to go!!!!!

I'll probably do my CNY shopping online bah.

Or just pick any shirt from my closet that my relatives haven't seen before to wear.

LOL :S

Till nxt time.

(sry if this post was disappointing)

I really need to write a fcking long blogpost before school reopens. I need to clear all thoughts before I go to school or else those thoughts will just get in my way. Damn....

Just a short post first.

Just now i was trying to chiong through my chem work.

I don't think I can finish every single piece of work by monday(sch reopen)

I know others envy me for having discipline to do my work etc,

but sometimes I rly wish I fking lose this discipline and heck care about hwk so I can enjoy.

Cuz there're moments when I do all the work and then those work don't need to be handed up.

DULAN ONLY!

I know it's good for me since I did the work and I benefit from it,

but most of the time, I do work for the sake of it being done and don't really process the questions.

Shit.

Now I really hope that I can freaking throw away this discipline and enjoy the last day of Holiday.

Should I do that?

Zzzzzzz.

Chem rev pckage - Rxn Kinetics, Organic Chem

Math - MI tutorial

GP assignment.

Bio test

I know I have a lot lesser workload compared to my classmates and I should be happy about it,

but I am a person who don't really console myself with others lacking behind.

It doesn't work that way for me lah.

Damn, and rumour says that Ms Elaine Koh is our CHem tcher and she's super strict.

Wa lao, super strict? Fine.

Who so sibeh kiasi send sms to all classamates to finish chem revn package?

in the end I think she will only collect and see see and then give it bck to us.

IT IS A REVISION PACKAGE AFTERALL.

I don't think I wanna do it anymore cuz now I damn pek cek.

But i know that tmr i wake up also will end up doing work becuz my heart can't be in peace if I left a single piece of work undone.

Why I so fucking disciplined, srsly.

I'll probably finish all MI , half of rxn kinetics tomorrow and then enjoy.

I can't stand it alrdy.

JC 2 life haven't even start and I'm feeling the stress.

WHERE'S MY KBOX THERAPY PPL?

With my current mindset like this, period, I don't think I can come up with the blog post that I wanted to a few days ago.

I have so many things I wanna blog about but I can't find time.

SCREW.

THATS IT.

THIS HOLIDAY I'M LOSING MY DISCIPLINE.

(it's only for 1 day and it's the last day of holidays)

I'LL FUCKING COPY OTHER PPL'S WORK I DONT GIVE A SHIT.

GONNA LEAVE BLANK AND SAY I DUNNO HOW TO DO.

SCREW SCREW SCREW SCREW SCREW

WHY I SO BLOODY DAMN SKED OF TCHER FINDING OUT THAT I NV DO WORK?

TA MAAAAA DEEEEEEEEEEE

ALL CAPS RAGE.

Ok I'm gonna sleep, 4.30am now and I'll sleep for 6 hours and wake up at 10.30am to finish MI tutorial and half of rxn kinetics by 4pm.

After that, I don't give a shit anymore.

Well, at least I did enjoy myself during this holiday but it's never enough.

Guess I'll have to balance it well.

And I'm almost awake for 20 hrs and I don't think I wanna push my body any further since school is reopening soon.

BYE GUYS.

Too many thoughts right now, will sort it out soon and blog about it.

After procastinating for 6hrs ever since I woke up, I'm finally blogging.

I have quite a handful of things, mainly events, to talk about. Not much insights.

1. X'mas celebration

2. Stayover at Mandi's house

3. Countdown chalet

I was so damn bored and free until the last week of December 2011 lol.

1. Had a X'mas celebration at my house.

Quite funny to see the bunch of guys being lost in what to do cuz they don't have their laptops.

Yeah so kinda slacked until dinner(KFC) arrived and we played Werewolf after that.

I didn't know that I couldnt peep/cheat lol, damn.

I thought it's some psychology game so I could trick people into believing that I'm a certain role but actually I'm a spy.

Yeah so played that game until it was time for gift exchange!

I bought that whack fly one and wrapped it with newspaper so that the whack fly one is cushioned and you can't guess it by touching.

Noah got it, feel so sorry for him ~

Anyway I got a box of Cadbury chocolates from Chin guan.

For 2 consecutive years, I've been getting food.

At least I can eat it and it's not useless.

Got many funny presents this year too - lightbulb, pantyliner, lipstick, construction toy etc.

Speaking of pantyliner, wtf man the bunch of guys put lipstick on the pantyliners and stick it on Malcolm.

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and Malcolm used the pantyliner as serviettes to eat the cake!

HAVE YOU GOT NO SHAME, MALCOLM?!

-Facepalm-

Yeah the cake is damn cute but I don't have a photo of it. Shit >_>

The cake is in the form of a snowman!

Initially I wanted to buy a log cake but when I saw that snowman cake, I knew that I had to buy it or else I will 跟我良心过不去.

Yehhhh so some of the guys stayed back to ton over while the rest went home.

Didn't knew what we were doing and most of the time we just slack, play cards and talk.

The guys taught me how to play Bridge and it was really difficult to play.

Until like 3am, then order Mac and then slack again.

Not that we had a lot of things to do but it was fun and there was lots of laughter.

2. Okay so I had a stayover at Mandi's house with Cass,Nat,CK,Bryan. Shiman and Joey came for awhile only.

It took me awhile to realise that Mandi's house got no door for all the rooms and it became the joke of the night lol.

Watched Pokemon and ate omelette rice that Mandi's dad cooked, nice!!!

Then played a game called Risk, not bad.

I flipped over and vomit blood whenever I discarded an Ace.

But that game quite mentally straining la, must memorise other people's cards, I want shut off my brain also can't.

I also introduced LF2 to Glenn lol, muahhaahahhaha welcome to the gaming world.

So played a game that CK prepared, kinda fun but I guess we played it too late in the night so we all had no energy.

I still have some photos of the plasticine models in my phone, but it's only a few so I won't upload it.

(Mandi, if you want I can send you)

So after that, spent like dunno how long slacking and deciding what to do.

Mandi's siblings also stayed up with us and had a lot of fun although we spent a lot of time being lost and deciding what to do.

Then went to Mandi's room to get some eye rest but her father came along to talk to us,

then time flew and it was morning.

Went to have some breakfast at Toastbox then went home to get a 3h sleep before leaving for chalet.

Reached home and slept until 10am+ when the postman knocked so hard on my door and woke me up.

I RECEIVED MY ONE PIECE CALENDAR 2012 FROM JAPAN!

OMG LA SO PRETTY!!!!

It's hanging on my wall now.

So did some packing, took a bath and left to meet the rest.

Luckily Malcolm wasn't late this time round so he carried my stuff (which wasn't very heavy).

Previously there was a time when he overslept and didn't carry my stuff which is bloody damn heavy roarrrrrrrrrrrr.

Yep so took the MRT to Pasir Ris,

it was a long ride~~~~

Played some hand games with SK, Malcolm and cass during the ride.

We looked stupid playing 猫抓老鼠抓几只 on the train.

I was feeling damn tired because I only slept for 2 hrs after returning home from Mandi's house.

>_> My eyelids are heavy like ffffffffffffff and I could tell that my face is puffy without a mirror.

Yep, reached Pasir Ris to find out that Shiman still in CCK because of her dad being late.

So the rest of us were at a lost.

Some of us decided to go grocery shopping while some went to bowl.

Honestly speaking, I wanted to bowl but I had to go buy BBQ stuff from Fairprice.

Damn >_>

Yeah so had some fun with the trolleys on the trip back to the chalet from Ehub.

I quickly did whatever I needed to set up for the BBQ and then I went to sleep.

I'M NOT LAZY HOR PLS, it's called efficient.

So I had a good rest and went to eat the BBQ food ~

The night passed quickly and I ate a decent amount of food la.

Then went into the chalet to play Bridge again, I agar agar know how to play that game but still got difficulties finding out who's my partner.

So the TV was on and of cuz my attention was diverted lolol.

Didn't take note of what cards were thrown out and GG lor.

I also won quite a few rounds but I think is my partner strong, not me lol.

Bridge is quite a fun game la, provided when I'm fully awake.

If feeling sleepy or stoning then cannot play that game.

Yup, so after that, we played Werewolf again.

After that, the guys went to cycle and the chalet was left with the 3 girls.

Took a shower and slacked.

Had our own Karaoke session and opened the Holy Table session.

2nd day,

Slacked until around 6am ( I think?) then the guys came back but I was already feeling damn sleepy.

So I slept until 7-8am and then went out to eat Breakfast.

It was quite funny because Cass was talking to me and then she signaled something to me when I was still half asleep.

So I thought she asked me to wake up and eat breakfast.

Cass went out of the chalet and closed the door, so I thought I should hurry up and head out too.

When I headed out, I only saw QH, CG, ZY and JS. Then I was like damn puzzled and thinking where's cass.

But I didn't care la , i just follow those few guys to Ehub becuz I was hella hungry.

原来 cass went to toilet and she joined us later at Mac.

Went to replenish our drink supply at EHub.

Returned to the chalet and I continued sleeping/resting while the rest were returning their bikes.

Went to play Pool and I suck at that sport.

I've only played once and so it was my 2nd time playing pool.

I teamed up with Cass and both of us dont have much experience lol, yay loser team but it's okay.

Since we lost, we went to the arcade and play a bit.

Lol i so fedup with cass while playing daytona because she keep kissing other car's butt and the time went out when we only completed 6 laps out of 8.

6 LAPS ONLY WTH.

Then played BishiBashi, as expected I was the sole survivor.

Yup so went back to the Pool place to find the guys.

SK convinced me to play 1 more round of Pool and I accepted.

My teammate was SK and we thought we're gonna lose because I so damn noob.

But in the end we won la, wah shuang sia, we managed to catch up at the last minute!

Must thank SK sensei and QH sensei for teaching me, and not forgetting JP also for teaching me n cass in the previous round.

But anyway the opponent was Malcolm and Kevin lol, thought they quite zai one but they lost because of Kevin ( i think).

Then went to eat lunch but I didn't eat, wasn't feeling hungry so just drink bubble tea.

Back to chalet and played Werewolf whole afternoon looool.

There was a bit of tension at the end but nvm la.

Luckily I die early in the game so I'm not involved.

Then went out to the park for some air, some stayed behind to mahjong.

We're supposed to play Capt Ball but couldn't find a good spot.

So in the end played Virus.

Wtf man lol ffffffffff hungry by then and still had to run.

I was caught but I didnt catch anyone, didn't bother to chase.

So the mahjong team came and dunno play what ball game.

So sad for my team because of me LOL.

我有脚跟没有脚一样, I don't like running.

But I must start running soon cuz I'm gaining weight like free.

Back then I was still 164cm with 43kg.

Now i'm like still 164cm with 55kg+

WHAT THE F.

Yeah so went dinner after the game.

We splitted up and I went Subway cuz I didn't bother to walk anymore.

QH lost his phone, kinda sad.

I didn't know how he lost it also, must have dropped it somehow.

Went back to chalet and watched TV.

I slept for awhile before going to bathe.

Nb, suay-est moment of the year.

I was waitin for the shower cubicles to clear so I chatted with cass.

We talking about serious stuff somemore then one ffffuuuuuuccccccckkkking big flying cockroach landed on my face.

CHUA SAI SIA WA LAO.

AND ITS SIBEI BIG MAN.

But nvm maybe after that bad experience I will tio 4D or something.

Anyway that issue happened LAST YEAR.

Went back to chalet and play cards/watched TV.

Playing Bridge again but my mind was abit off alrdy and screwed up quite a bit.

But at least ah, first thing I did in year 2012 was to win a Bridge match LOL.

After that played Risk, Cheat with them and deciding to go bowl when things got boring.

Reached EHub and didnt bowl in the end because too ex.

So it was a form of nightwalk then everyone jus tapao food and go back eat.

Went upstairs to have some ghost story talk.

Everyone must contribute a sentence and our goal was to create a ghost story.

It turned out to be some joke.

"Clown A and Clown B took MRT..... They own dogs"

wtf lol.

Yup, then we off the lights and talked some serious shit.

Sadly, none of us in the circle could tell ghost stories and we all became sleepy after awhile, around 5.30am.

Idk why every chalet's last night I will have some stupid shit happening to me.

The room was freaking cold and I had no blanket or anything to cover.

Somemore I was sandwiched between LJ and JH and I had no space.

I felt like I was planking more then sleeping.

In the end, I buay tahan so I went out of the room and downstairs,

hoping that there's a spot for me to sleep, but there was none la.

So I decided to hunt for blankets so that I could cont sleeping in the cold room.

There're supposed to be 4 but I could only find 3 and all 3 are occupied.

I couldn't find that last blanket.

By the time I went back to the room,

TOO LATE, MY SPOT WAS TAKEN BY A SIDE FLIP OF JH AND LJ.

Last place to sleep is the stairs and I slept on the stairs from 6am-9.40am.

In between I'll wake up occasionally to stretch my back or sleep on the small space in between the door and the stairs.

But good thing is that it's not that cold compared to the room.

Yup by 9.50am, all woke up, packed up and left the chalet.

Ate breakfast, again, I wasn't hungry and I just drank a small cup of milo.

Took the train home and yah lor, liddat lor.

Took a bathe and slept.

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These few days I haven't been eating well.

dunno why leh.

Last time 1 packet of rice I always can finish,

now I can barely finish half a packet.

Maybe at home rot too much then metabolism very low.

I need my Kbox therapy soon.

I think I'll just stop here cuz it's 6am alrdy.

This post like so boring ah, nvm it's only for me to remember things.

I'm gonna later and then blog again.

YEAHHHH MANNNNNNNNNNNN

Just a post before I go on and do my homework.

I spent 2 days catching up Skip Beat manga, approx 150 chapters in 1 day.

PRO ANOT? HAHAHAHAHHAHAA

I'm quite proud of myself for my manga reading speed lol.

I decided to continue the manga after a long break because.....

Ok to be honest I started out with the anime first,

but I'm v disappointed because there wasn't a season 2.

And the anime makes me wanna continue finding what's going on by reading the manga.

MANGA IS GOOOD.

The anime came out in 2008 but I only review it in 2011(end of 2011 somemore) because I didn't really had time.

Skip Beat is realllyyy gooood for girls.

Here's a pic of Skip Beat~

Currently I'm having Tsuruga Ren fever lol, the 2D one.

In the anime, there's 2 main male leads.

Fuwa Sho(blond hair left) and Tsuruga Ren(blackish brown hair right)

I prefer Tsuruga Ren becauseeeee.....

aiya both of them are good looking but I pick Tsuruga Ren hahahahhaah.

The same goes for Vampire Knight lor.

Idk why a lot of girls chose Zero rather than Kaname.

OBVIOUSLY KURAN KANAME IS SO MUCH HOTTER ):

Anyway Tsuruga Ren is like my dream guy now,

unrealistic lah, i know he 2D but fantasize a bit nevermind mah.

I realised that I always pick the more 'mature' guy in anime/manga.

Yeah man I like more mature guys.

I know every girl wants a mature-mindset guy.

But I don't just want mature-mindset, everything he do must also be mature.

Roarrrrrrrr I wait long long then have.

And there's a Skip Beat Drama produced from Taiwan.

I really don't think Skip Beat should be made into a drama because it will just lose it's magic.

Even though the cast includes 2 members from super junior, I don't think they'll bring out Sho's and Ren's personality.

(Fuwa Sho is acted by Dong Hae and Tsuruga Ren is acted by Si Won)

Not that I dislike DongHae and SiWon but I watched the first epsiode of Skip Beat Drama and I couldn't take it.

It appears to be tooooooo unrealistic to be happening in real life.

FYI, Skip Beat is a slapstick manga in the first place.

And the female lead in the drama is too..... kua zhang la, she didn't bring out the essentials in Kyoko.

Certain mangas should be made into drama/movie and some shouldn't.

For example, Ouran High School Host Club, Kaichou wa Maid-sama, Skip Beat, Special A shouldn't be made into drama/movie!

Not just the shoujo(girl) category, shounen(boy) manga/anime such as One Piece, Naruto, Bleach also shouldn't be made into drama/movie!

It doesn't matter if a really hot actor is casting in the show but these animes CAN'T BE MADE INTO LIVE ACTION.

By saying Drama/Movie, I meant using HUMANS to act as the characters inside ok.

Manga/Anime such as Koizora, NANA, Bokura ga Ita, Clannad SHOULD DEFINITELY BE MADE INTO LIVE ACTION!

Aiya most of you all won't probably know what I'm talking about except for Bryan, Nat, I suppose. Then you all will just speed-read whatever I'm writing above.

DAMN YOU, WHY YOU DON'T READ MANGA OR WATCH ANIME?

I'm really pissed at those who don't watch anime or read manga.

They find them unrealistic or don't find it enjoyable to read comics.

But there are many aspects of anime that you can't find in live action dramas!

Anime allows space for imagination, and I mean REAL IMAGINATION.

I know there're movies like Terminator, X-Men etc etc which also requires imagination.

If you were to make them all into movies,

the audience would praise at how realistic a movie is made to be. e.g Transformers.

Like "woah, the effect so sui, wah, Optimus Prime!"

There's a certain element of science inside many, I SAID MANY, non-anime movies.

You gotta have a realistic environment or else people won't watch it.

But for anime?

You don't need any reason.

You just paint your own world.

A world that everything revolves around chakra, devil fruits, reiatsu?

(I'm using the more popular animes for reference)

There are also many expressions that are expressed in animes that can't be expressed in live action.

I don't know how to explain it for non-anime watchers to understand but there's a reason why so many people are into anime!

And then there're just some who goes on saying "Why bother liking a 2D character that's never real?"

If the manga artist made his/her readers like the characters in the manga, HE'S SUCCESSFUL DAMN IT!

Screw you all who don't even give anime/manga a try.

Of course I don't agree with those who are too-overly(?) obsessed with anime/manga.

Yeah you can buy the anime's merchandise and adore them but you don't have to treat or worship them like gods. lol.

There're some on my FB friend list if you don't believe.

For example,

I mentioned above that Tsuruga Ren is my dream guy right?

What I meant is that I wanna find a 3D person like Tsuruga Ren, I DO NOT mean that I want the 2D Tsuruga Ren.

Those who are so obsessed with anime/manga until the extent that they only want the 2D version then they're really screwed.

At least I am still sane.

I'm so happy that anime/manga is invented in this world.

Another reason to love Japan!

Don't bash me,

I don't mean that anime/manga is superior to live action dramas/movies.

What I'm trying to say is that those who haven't explored the anime/manga world should go and give it a try because it's really worth it.

I'm gonna chiong finish my work and then read NANA, I've been lagging behind the latest chapter for very long!

Also, being a manga/anime lover does not make you a nerd and it's not cartoon.

I hate it whenever I'm watching anime then my father walk into my room and say I'm a 17 year old watching cartoon.

Shut up lah go back to your TV and watch ROCKY or watch 爱/霹雳火, your generation one.

After reading all these, you still don't wanna go explore the 2D world, then screw you lah.

You're missing out so many good stuff. You 笨小孩!

(哎呀，望着胸口排一排哑~~）<-- From Andy Lau's song.

I feel so GEK SIM for you.

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Anyway recently SMRT keep break down, I mean the train hor.

Then so many unhappy Singaporeans keep flaming SMRT/LTA.

Come on lah, didnt you watch/read the report on why the trains broke down?

I also didn't really understand all the physics terms but I don't think it's something as simple as lack of maintenance.

Yes SMRT may be arrogant and was, I said WAS, relaxed on the checking and maintaining the SMRT train parts, but I don't think got so zhun all the parts fell off at once right?

Somemore in the town area only!

Suck it up Singaporeans, our transport system is already considered much more better than other countries.

SMRT shuttle bus break down also blame the CEO?

You siao ah?

Anyway we should be all feeling happy that we're lucky that no one died from the SMRT break down right?

And it's quite fun for us to walk in the train tunnels what, NOT FUN MEH?

And some lucky Singaporeans get to smash windows without getting fined, come on man, if I was in that unlucky train, I would have probably volunteered to smash it if I knew I didn't had the pay fine LOL.

I have to praise SMRT for controlling the situation so quickly.

The interval between trains is like 3-4min, and to convey commands to handle the situation within such a short time span isn't easy.

Then we, Singaporeans, all complain the train very cramp.

Damn you lah, you got see countries like India anot?

Their train is not cramp one leh, their train not even a train.

You say Singapore don't have long distance trains like India one right?

And our train got air conditioner one right?

I show you Japan train lor, Japan standard of living almost same as ours mah.

You think our MRT full? lol

I think Singaporeans are just not happy with the transport fares rising.

Eh come on lah.... travel back and forth at most $2 nia.

I thought Singaporeans quite rich one?

You one day don't drink KOI or Gong Cha lor, then ta-da, you have your transport money.

Those who have more to begin with, they are unwilling to share.

I don't know if I've mentioned this before (I think I did but let's just bring that matter up again)

My current classmates, shall not name who.

Few of them are like.. rich, ok maybe they don't seem rich in their own eyes, but they're well-off.

They don't even wanna donate their spare change to PJC Walkathon.

(I do agree that the Walkathon is a shitty idea.)

The target is $100.

Yeah I know, lowering our heads to ask donations from other people is a bit embarrassing.

Since you don't wanna lower your head, then at least chip in some of your own money?

Ok fine, you chipped in, but you chip in $2 only?

I chipped in $10 from my own pocket by the first collection.

I can definitely tell you that I'm not as well-off as them.

I'm no heroine because there're some who chipped in $50, idk whether they flaunting their wealth or are really giving, I choose to believe the latter)

Even my CT,Mrs Loh also said that people who are more well-off to begin with are more selfish.

I don't know if it's the right expression but a lot of Singaporeans nowadays are born with a silver spoon in their mouth.

They start off well, so they didn't experience what it's like to be worse than their starting point.

We don't have the strong desire to improve because we didn't taste shit before.

Those who kana shit before are those who will really grow.

Besides that, $2 is really pathetic, selfish people.

This is why Singapore is so unhappy.

Moving back to the SMRT incident right,

I think it may be a 恶作剧, like maybe some ahbengs or terrorists purposely remove the rail parts to cause the trains to breakdown.

I don't really think that the parts would fall on their own.

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Then there's this Aaron Tan thingy also.

Actually his original video like nothing one lor, just a simple ah beng death treat to the gobangwall boy.

Then suddenly got so many other bo liao people go make video replies lolol.

Quite funny lah, it entertained me on a boring day.

Then a lot of Singaporeans go flame the HolyFadedSoldier.

That guy is a total loser in his 2nd video lololol.

Can't take criticism then post 'FUCK YOU SINGAPOREANS' in his own video.

Say we racist.

If we really that racist then how we live together lol.

Anyway this DeeKosh guy quite interesting ah,

although I don't know if his accent really fake or what and he may be a bit annoying,

some of his points are actually true and it's nice to see a fellow Singaporean standing up for ourselves.

But DeeKosh always bring up unhappy issues in Singapore e.g Taxi Fare increase, and this would only remind/brainwash us about how sucky Singapore is, which I don't really like.

We need to remind ourselves how lucky we are.

(making myself look great)

Anyway by now you would have seen me using many emoticons in this post, (if you can see, that is)

Yeah I kinda started using them again, makes my post more expressive.

Hahahaha.

Christmas is just right around the corner.

Sadly, my house don't have a xmas tree because we threw it away.

But I have a replacement hahahahha , it's a snowman light.

It saddens me every year when I know I have to go to my Uncle's(my mother's side) house to celebrate Xmas.

It's really boring because the people and the guests there are very career-focused.

Everytime you go there, they'll ask you what you wanna be when you grow up, ur ambition, ur plans to reach ur ambition etc.

Boring.

I keep telling them that I have no plans for my future and they give me that face.

So annoying.

You should be grateful that I didn't tell you that I wanna become a ninja.

Then everytime my uncle will just tell me how great his son is bla bla bla.

FYI his son is studying to be a doctor.

He will ask me if I wanna get tips from his son bla bla bla bla.

Screw him, I could be a nerd like him if I wanted to, but sorry, no thanks.

And then there's another distant cousin of mine who will visit there every year too.

I DON'T EVEN KNOW HIS NAME.

When he's discussing about his future with my uncle, I kinda overheard.

He say he wanna build an aircraft or something.

My heart broke into laughter as soon as I heard it.

Like this .

Not that I 看不起 him or something, but sorry, in Singapore I don't think you can lol.

Well, it's good that he has a goal to work towards.

If he wants to study building aircrafts, he should go overseas.

In addition, the food there is boring.

Every year eat the same thing: Turkey Ham, Chicken Ham, salad etc etc.

It's so plain man, i'd rather eat cup noodles.

It annoys me when they're so health conscious.

X'mas 1 year 1 time, eat some unhealthy food will die?

They dont even have potato chips in their house,

all they have for guests to snack on is .. nuts (those healthy ones like almond)

It also bothers me when their Nasi Briyani has some weird things inside.

NASI BRIYANI IS NASI BRIYANI,

WHY YOU ADD RAISINS AND ALMOND NUTS INSIDE?!

And worst of all, I cannot pon teng this because my mom would be upset.

My father pon teng every year and my sis ponteng like, alternate years.

I suay lor, who ask me youngest in the family then my wings spread last and I can't ponteng this.

Im gonna ponteng next year, I'll tell my mother 1 year beforehand lol.

I love Christmas but the turn off about it is that I have to go to my uncle's house.

And I don't know anyone there, luckily this year I got iPhone.

ANTI-SOCIAL WEAPON.

I just overheard that my father is inviting his kopitiam friends over to my house during CNY.

Yuck, I hate it.

All the cigarette smell gonna stain my house.

And I don't know any of them, how you expect me to stay home?

I don't care, my 翅膀硬了(wings harden already), I'm gonna ponteng that.

NOW WHO IS NICE ENOUGH TO LET ME STAY OVER YOUR HOUSE FOR 1 NIGHT?

(I am serious)

Somemore he asked me if he can borrow my room to let his guests play Mahjong.

Few years ago, the room i'm staying in wasn't my room, it was more of a spare room, ok fine, since no one is occupying it, then it can be a mahjong room.

But now? It became my room, you think I'd gladly open up my room for your guests to come in and Mahjong? The cigarette smells all over, pui.

My dad knows that I don't like the idea of him inviting guests over but I know I've always invited my own friends over to my house and I guess I have to be fair.

However, I'll not borrow my dad's guest my room because it's too unreasonable!

My friends also never step into my dad's room!

I don't care if the whole house is registered under his name but as long as I'm here,

I won't allow it.

TOO BAD, YOUR DAUGHTER'S WINGS HAVE HARDENED AND SHE CAN GO AGAINST YOU NOW.

Recently, my dad also bought me a Baby-G watch (it's the real deal) when I didn't even asked for it.

I'm happy with my $20 digital watch but yet he insisted to buy a watch for me.

At first I think he bought it out of love, but now that I think of it, it's a bribe.

Maybe I think too much lolol, but he never bought one for my sister and YEAH, HE ONLY GAVE IT TO ME BECAUSE HE WANTED TO USE MY ROOM!!!!!!

Hahha jk, it's still unknown if the watch is really a bribe.

Tch, don't think you bought me a watch then you can convince me to hand over my room.

Not so easy, 没那么容易!

Maybe if he gave me money to Japan, I would consider.

Ok I'm ending my post here cuz I can't rmb what I wanted to blog about.

As promised, a post about TVXQ(DBSK) Asia Fan Party!
The ticket costs $188...
At first I was contemplating really hard on whether to go or not, but I'm so so so so glad that I decided to go! :D

Lightstick(red) and the tickets!

Me and my cousin, we took this shot after the show.

Yes, we were that close to DBSK!

This was our view in the mosh pit!

Focus on the towel!

My primary 6 wish finally came true!

Ok I would say... half true.

In Pri 6, I remember clearly that my blog had a wishlist on the sidebar.

And one of the wishes was to watch a DBSK concert.

True that I did watch DBSK perform, but it was only 2 of them, not the whole 5.

And it was a Fan Party, not a full concert.

$188 is too expensive for just a Fan Party, you would think.

But to me, it was very important.

I've waited for nearly 5-6 years for DBSK to come to Singapore.

DBSK is my favourite Kpop band too, they ain't any rookie okay.

I was so happy to see the red ocean(audience all lit up their red lightsticks) with my own eyes.

Spectecular view!

I bought the mosh pit tickets and got a really good view of DBSK!

I was in pen A and nearer to Changmin although my bias is YunHo.

I SHOULD HAVE BOUGHT PEN B ):

I don't think me going to DBSK's fan party is just any normal fangirl-ing.

They really mean a lot to me and it was their songs which brought me through the dark(est) moments of my life.

There're a lot of ahjuma fans and I find it normal.

DBSK's charm is more mature in a sense.

There're also a lot of interaction between the fans and the 2 members! C:

And I finally got to fulfill another wish!

That wish is to cheer for DBSK (fan chant) hahaha.

It's like all the fans would shout in unity when the band is performing.

When I heard that DBSK is left with 2 members, I really thought that I had no chance to see DBSK perform live anymore.

Yunho and Changmin are really tall and good-looking in person!

They're 184cm and 186cm respectively.

Their singing is ... DAEBAK!

It really sounds good and I'm so glad that I did choose them as my favourite band.

It's like... DBSK gives me reasons to protect them as my favourite band.

Their singing, looks, dancing, talent, humbleness etc etc.

Yunho is my bias because he really came a long way.

He was born in Gwang Ju and he left his hometown for Seoul, to pursue his dream.

He was alone... he had no money and had to sweep snow, be a waiter... and he had no shelter.

It really hurts me to see him come a long way to chase his dream while nowadays the other kpop idols are just scouted by agents.

I do think there're many decent reasons to see DBSK as decent singers, not just some idol band.

Anyway, if I had to describe my dream guy, it has to be YunHo... heheh.

He's not really that good looking compared to the other DBSK members but he has charisma!

His charisma was what caught me and he's been my favourite ever since I came across DBSK.

He's really nice and he's a good leader too.

Although he's a little bit too competitive but this shows his determination.

Awwww...

If you're reading this post and think that I'm just fangirl-ing, screw you, you better be jealous because you're missing out on something soooooo damn good.

I don't like people to say that the things I love is not worth liking.

Just because DBSK originates from Korea, you shouldn't treat them like other recent Kpop idol bands. Hmmph!

It was really a touching night because the 2 members apologised sincerely for letting Singapore Cassiopeians wait 6 years for their arrival in Singapore.

Changmin even teared hahahah.

I can tell that it's really a sincere apology, sixth sense, don't ask me how.

Anyway this Fan Party is really meaningful to me because a dream that I thought that would never come true again... came true.

I thought I had lost all hope in seeing DBSK perform live but I got to.

Always keep the faith.

I hope DBSK comes back as 5 and sing my favourite song, Tonight.

A picture of changmin and yunho performing to wrap up everything!

(the photos do not belong to me, I enjoyed the whole event without snapping any photos)

FUCK I FORGOT THAT I WENT TO TVXQ CONCERT.
That one got pictures so I'll upload and blog about it tomorrow.

I'M SO SORRY(to dbsk, not you) AND I WILL COMMIT SEPPUKU.

Seppuku - usually a term used by Japanese Samurais who slice their stomach when they are not loyal to their superiors.

I love it when a certain song spark off a chain of thoughts.

I was running through my song folder (i have 30gb worth of songs wow and that doesnt include my portable hard disk).
I usually classify my songs according to language and then the artists.
Then I felt kinda ang moh today and went to click on the 'English' folder.
I don't listen to English music often but don't know why I felt like it today.

So, I clicked on 'Where is the love?' by Black Eye Peas.
This song got me thinking a lot.
You all probably already know, many of us download music because it's catchy etc.

Yup, I downloaded this song last time because I probably found the beat catchy.
We often ignore the lyrics.
Now that I'm listening to 'Where is the love?' again, I viewed it in another perspective and it got me thinking "Ah.. why didn't I think of that way before?"

I've been listening to so many K-pop songs recently and I forgot the real reason why I even listen to music.
I'm not trying to be a music guru here.
Not only K-pop songs, there are many other genres out there who have songs that are just plain catchy.
The lyrics of those songs don't really mean anything.
Especially those party songs...

Yes I know, without those party songs, how do clubs get hyped up?

There are just too many songs out there that are about love, to be specific, boy-girl love.
Many many songs about break ups, obsession, sadness, regret etc.
But I would really prefer good music with lyrics that are about our lives.
I'm not saying that boy-girl love isn't part of our lives... but cm'on, we know we can be something much greater than just finding our true love.

There should be more songs about growing up, world peace, friends etc.
I assume that without the music, many of us search for songs with lyrics that are relatable to us.
And we are all often blinded by what we think it's most important to us, love.
Yes indeed love is important, but there are also many types of love.
I'm not assuming that everyone is the same... but it's just an impression given to me by the people around me.
Again, let me remind you, without the music/rhythm etc, just the lyrics alone.
We deem a song to be good when the lyrics are relatable to us and gets us emotional.
Like really, is love for the opposite sex that important?
I think that's all we think about during our late teenage years.
When we finally get pass our teenage years and become adults, I'm sure we will realise that there's something more important out there besides love for the opposite sex and that's the time when we'll regret "why didn't I realise this earlier?".

Yeah I know that finding our partner in our lives is important, but it's not number 1 priority.

Now, stop thinking that I will become a bacholertte for the rest of my life by reading that I just wrote.
Screw you if you thought that way!

Does boy-girl love really do so much impact in our lives?
I don't really know, maybe if you asked me when I was younger, I would have said yes.
I admit that I did have some craze/frenzy about getting a bf when I was younger.
But now? I don't think it's that important anymore.
I know the right one will come along anyway, muahahahahaha.

Right now, I feel that family, friends(yah la I know nowadays my post keep babbling about friends right?), peace and securing what's important to me is number 1.

If I can't even secure the things around me, what reason do I have to go search for something so complicated a.k.a boy-girl love?

Hmmmm, 'Where is the love?' - Black Eyed Peas kinda gave me the inspiration to write this blog post.
I know the songs is about... mostly world peace and respect.
That song didn't really sinpire me to blog about world peace and respect, but more of what I am doing right now.
What do I mean by that?
I don't know, you have to keep on reading to guess.

And I know that my writing in this blog post is very formal right?
HA HA HA HA.

I don't know how that song brought me to this thought about what I am doing in my own life.
It's okay if you don't figure out that link because me myself also can't explain the link.
If you can figure out, voila your EQ will score a distinction.

I guess having a holiday really gives me time for myself to think.
It's like every november-december holiday is a 'mentality growing session'.
Because after every EOY holiday, I go back to school thinking that I'm a changed person and I grew up more.
Well at least I would see myself to be more mature than those 1 year younger than me.

Sometimes I think what the fk I am doing right now... really.
Do I really want to have good results and just move on to have a good job with good income?
I don't really want it.
Maybe that's how the society defines 'stability'/'security' or even 'success' is.
Do you really feel happy? Or are you just satisfied with your achievement?
Even if you did feel happy with that 'success' defined by the society, I think that happiness comes from solely you reaping what you sow.
How to say... it's like you put in so many months/years of hard work and you finally got the results that you want, that kind of happiness.

I seek for a different kind of happiness.
I think the ideal kind of happiness I would want is the happiness I get when I'm helping someone.
Like you get a sense of warmth after filling the gap that the person himself can't even fill.
I don't know how to explain... but I really like that kind of happiness.
I guess it mostly happens when you give and don't ask for anything in return.
You don't expect any results, you don't have any goal to reach.
I just want to wander around with no ultimate goal and give whatever I can.

Relating back to reality, I guess this kind of happiness is very uncommon.
I thought that becoming a social volunteer would expose myself greatly to the kind of happiness I'm seeking for, but really, do I have the ability to do it?
More of, do I have the time to do it?
I'm tied down by many things in life, so many that I had no choice but to follow 'success' defined by the society.
I owe my parents my life, owe them for whatever they've given me, owe whoever gave me help to make me what I am today. It's not all just monetary matter, I also owe the people around me who introduced me to more people, owe whoever who appreciated me. The list just goes on.

I don't think I'm a human if I just take it all for granted. We may not realise but we are all tied down by these things in our lives that were given to us, regardless of whether we want it or not.
Before we even had our own conscience or conscious, we are already given things. Your parents gave you love, care, attention, milk powder, your bed, etc.
And then we feel that it is only right for us to repay our parents for whatever they've given us.
To do so, we have to become sufficient in terms of money to support our parents and we have to listen to them.

I'm not saying that our parents giving us love equals to tying us down, NO.
You yourself know better than that.

I just want to come to a point where everything is back to zero.
A point where nothing ties me down and I really could choose anything I want to be.

Taking myself as an example, I have to become someone with financial stability to support my parents in their later years and to sustain my own family in the near future.
Financial stability means a job with good income = good studies.

Actually ah, at the end of the day, I'm just pointing at " I don't want to study, I don't want to follow the norm, I don't want anything to tie me down, I just want to have freedom".

Simi sai, I write so many chunks of paragraphs just to express what I'm trying to say in the previous sentence.

I know that there a few people out there who really got what they want by the non-academic method.

Like you can satisfy your own ambition of being a server by going to kopitiam and serve fishball noodle what. No need to study so much to go to France and become a professional server in some random high class hotel. It's all the same mah!
At the end of the day, you serve people and the rules are the same.
You walk up to them while carrying their food, introduce the name of the dish and put it down on their table.

Kopitiam and high class restaurant not much difference what, both also got table number, just that kopitiam table no. is visible to all and high class restaurant table no. is only visible to their own staff.
You go work at kopitiam as server more easy sia, just go up to the person, say "bak chor mee?", ur customer nod, you put down the dish, then you collect money and walk away.

High class restaurant so difficult, you go up to ur customer, say "seafood paella for you, miss?", ur customer nod, you put down the dish carefully, say "enjoy your meal", when customer eat finish, you need clear table and put setting again.

Of cuz everyone will choose to serve at kopitiam right?
But then everyone looks at the salary and finally make their decision.
Money makes the world go round.

At this moment, I don't even know what I'm pointing at because I never really had a point to deliver anyway lol.
Pick whatever you can understand make sense out of it.
Then you will learn something valuable yourself, ahahahaha.

After saying all this right, I think after I sleep and wake up, I will da3 hui2 yuan2 xing2. lol, means go back to my original square.
Nothing will rly change, and I'll just live my life day by day again.
I will go back to the cycle of just studying and studying ... work and work ...

What I'm lookin for is not just having a career that is out of the norm, no, not that simple.
I don't mean by becoming an artist in Singapore(a country w/ very little artistic culture) or by migrating to other countries to change my own environment is gonna make me achieve what I want. I don't know how I can explain but it's more of having no shape and I could make myself to be anything I want.

I want a world whereby everyone is free and they make their own choices without the need to look at limitations or things that they owe other people.
It's like, you don't have a shape or texture to begin with.
To become a rock, you have to be hard.
To become a doctor, you have to have knowledge.
I don't want that.

You don't have anything to start with, which opens you to a whole range of choices.
You are not a circle to begin with, so you don't have to be necessarily made into a CD, a donut, a car wheel, a pizza.
It's point zero we are talking about.

Actually I also very confused by what I'm saying.
A moment ago I was talking about the kind of happiness i was seeking for and then now I'm taklin about point zero.
Hmmm >_>

But I think it'll be an interesting read, right?
I think I need someone in my life to connect all these thoughts I have.
Enough about all those, let me now write my own history a.k.a things that happened in my life.

Right now I really wish I had another cup of gong cha so I can sip on it while I blog.
BUT I FINISHED IT GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I've been procastinating so much.

Recently, just celebrated Najiha's bday.
I rmb that I was a belated celebration but who cares, as long as it's done.
Had a fun Kbox session in the afternoon first before meeting up with the rest of the group.
Had dinner at pizza hut and then after that they came over to my house and watch movie.
Xiao Zhe Hui Jia hahahah, quite a funny film.

I guess the nxt event I had after that is Metro SIF.
I was activated reserve, at first I was like FKKKKKKKKKK.
But it wasn't that bad of an experience at all.
Emily and Thiba was at the front, interacting with people and all I did was to fold balloons behind-the-scenes.

Who knew that I would become so good at balloon sculpting?
I wouldn't call myself an expert but at least I found it fun and I really like how easy it is.
Like you just have to use some brain cells to put the parts together and line them up in order first before sculpting.
It's a lot of trial and error but you'll always be exploring and it's easy to open up new discoveries.
Like, you can fold a poodle and by leaving a longer portion at the neck area, you'll have a giraffe.

Anyway, had my metro SIF official duty with cass and jin mei.
I felt like I was the pro at balloon sculpting amongst them hahaahahha.
Then of cuz, cass was our mascot.

From the way that she was doing her CIP right, I can tell that she's one of those who can't stay still.
Like she can't get an office job, she have to be always moving and trying something new.
It's good in a way that you'll always have something refreshing, but that may also suggest instability.
To Cass: Maybe your hand ah, the lines never join... it may really suggest that scary prediction that you don't want LOL, but choy....

Metro SIF may just seem to be another CIP to others, but I learnt many things from it.
I observe how all those parents and their kids walk pass our balloon booth,
the kids will be staring and the parents won't get them the balloons unless it's for free.
You've got to donate $5 to get a balloon.

I mean like HEY... since you got money to shop at Metro, $5 isn't much to you right?
Somemore the money donated really goes to charity what.
Then some aunties will donate $1 or even worse, 20 cents was the least I've seen, just to get a booklet containing many different vouchers.
Like they'll come to our booth and say, "eh the voucher is $1 can get liao hor?"

Really? Do you even know where your $1 goes to?
Is that voucher all you can see?

When we grow up, we become more money-minded. (Duh of cuz I know that you know).
But when i see parents bringing their kids to the booth and donatin $5 to get balloons for their kids, they first ask the kid to choose what they want.
When the kid chooses a poodle(made by 1 balloon), the parents whisper to their ears and tell the kid to pick the flower(made by 2 balloons).
Why? Simply because it is more worth lah.

I agree on that, you donate $5 and u get to choose between 2 things made by 1 balloon and 2 balloon respectively. OF CUZ TAKE THE 2 BALLOON ONE LAH.
But come on man, your kid like the poodle, give him the poodle.
It doesn't make a difference!
Both the poodle and the flower will shrink and die by 3 days.

And I like how kids just look at all the balloons in front of them and pick the one they like most, instinctively.
There's no need to consider how many balloons are used in the sculpture or how much effort is needed to make the sculpture.

It's good that we all become more aware when we grow up.
But I think it's only good if we use that awareness to defend and not use it as an advantage to get more than what we need.

You become more aware of your environment to protect yourself.
You don't use that awareness to go extort things from others.

Also, i felt very bad for having to reveal the fact that the parents have to donate $5 to get a balloon.
If I could, I would fold balloons and give them out for free.
It's kinda sad to see those kids staring at those balloons and being pulled away by their parents after hearing that a donation is needed.

But however there are really some kids that are damn annoying lah.
No intention of wanting the balloon but then keep come and di siao, poke the balloon on display.
Then some younger ones will just take the balloon and walk away...
then i will think " hallo kid.. you think u v funny ah.. gimme the balloon back dey "

Then there's this boy who came on both my duty slots.
I don't rmb his name but he's a mixed chiense and malay.
He keep disturbing when my team is busy.
At first I find him annoying but after hearing his background from Emily, my heart soften la, NOT LITERALLY.

His parents just give him money and don't really care about him.
No wonder he's running around like free...

Funny how our perceptives of others can just change with a single fact, eh?

Anyway I gave him a balloon bracelet for free lah, since he entertained me quite a bit and help to fold poodles.

After that metro SIF, I don't have anything schedule and it's like damn boring la my life.

Everyday just DN DN DN and don't want do homework.

Anyway the last week of december holiday seems promising with lots of activities hahahahhaa.

It's a long post and I hope it's not that boring.

AND I WANNA GO TO JAPAN SO BADLY MAN, DAMN!