生活的压力和生命的尊严，哪一个重要 ?

Too many mistakes to count.

Excuse me, you mofo.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!

It's been a while since I've had so much free time on my Fridays!

Finally I don't have morning chem lesson on saturdays so I don't need to chiong anything on Friday nights!

Also I have a empty weekend so I can stay home on Sat and Sun !!!!!!

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL WHEN I'M HOME.

Anyway I'm falling sick, or I am already sick. lol.

It's irritating when you have that 'want-sneeze-but-cannot-sneeze' feeling.

And the facial expression at that moment is just.... epic.

My mom bought a weighing machine, do you call that a weighing balance or sth?

I know it's normal for every household to have it but I don't have a weighing machine in my whole 17+ yrs of life in my house lol.

So i've been playing with it but it has been depressing HAHAHAHA.

Cut your thoughts about " Sam is not fat " lol.

Every girl has their ideal weight!!!!!

Yeah so before I had the weighing balance, I only took my weight every six months in the school lol.

And after every holiday I always put on weight.

Nvm lah.... food more important.

The past 2 weeks have been really quiet with the OGLs gone.

But I kinda enjoy it, A LOT.

Every lesson feels like consultation and the more quiet students(LIKE MEEEEE) can finally get to voice out my doubts.

Usually those loud people will just KS my questions then I don't wanna ask alrdy.

Assholes.

Thanks to all of those loud people then the quiet-students-who-are-actually-not-that-quiet are labelled as unresponsive students by the teachers.

In fact, many of my tutors were kinda surprised that the 'quiet' bunch of people actually ask questions.

I feel kinda proud of myself for answering so many GP questions becuz GP tutorial is 1.5hrs and it's a zombifying session. So when Mr Lim ask qns, no one really wanna respond cuz either zoning out or just dun wan say.

Then I abit buay tahan cuz I'm a generally NICE and CONSIDERATE person, so I know how saddening it is for Mr Lim if his students aint interested in his lessons.

Moreover, he's sick so I decided to answer his questions lor.

做好人sia.... will tio 4D anot?

Somemore the tutor will put more attention on us and like weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Cuz i'm those student who always kana neglected.

School life has really been hectic, everyday is just go school, go home do hwk and the cycle repeats.

I wanted to laugh so badly when a kranji junior posted on FB that "JC life is so hard" when he/she is just admitted into JC.

Srsly bro/sis.... really?

I'm still balancing well but I guess everything will just mess up as I go on.

Aiya, every year also liddat one lah,

I will start off really well and then by the end of term 1,

I will start screwing up and not doing my work.

Ok not say literally not doing but I always don't achieve what i really wanted to complete.

I don't want to imagine what's gonna happen when the OGLs come back to class next week.

Surely there'll be some idiot who will answer "Ok" then other dumbasses will either respond with "alright" or "K is for keller... we love keller....blablablabla"

Then I'll be like,

lol, totally.

Can't imagine how much the OGLs needa catch up.

Have fun suffering guys!!!!!!

Anw I'll really take my time to enjoy this friday night.

WHAT A LUXURY TO SIT HERE AND STARE AT THE COMP.

On another note,

Valentine's day is coming and it's the only day when i'll accumulate all my PMS mood in the whole year and show it on that day.

Honestly I don't know if I'll really get cranky on that day but I think I will lol.

Furthermore it's a tuesday and I can't hide myself at home shit.

Don't need me to say but every girl wishes to be with somebody on V-day one lah.

And I know it applies to all girls so don't deny it.

Well I'm not totally at the far end of the foreveralone meter.

In my whole 17+ yrs, I've been out with a guy on V-day before hahahahahaha,

but that's too long ago ._.

I've moved on (obviously).

I think I'm quite a good catch last time, I SAID LAST TIME , STOP JUDGING.

But I donno what I've evolved into.

Ok I think I know, I've involved into this thing below.

lololol, not that I'm seeking pity in the form of ppl telling me "sam you can find your partner one lah...., priest... your looks not bad mah"

Priest lah, you think so easy meh?

I wouldnt want a partner who's okay with me becuz of looks.

To be honest I think my personality is too much like a guy...

By that I don't mean the lecherous thoughts of a guy, but... you know lah.

I'm the tio friendzoned type of girl LOL.

Kinda sad but at the same time sibeh heng too (LOLOLOL)

When school ends on 14 Feb, I'm gonna chiong home, pretend that I'm rushing home to go out on a date but actually I'm going home to.... study.

MISERABLE LAH SAM, MISERABLE.

FYI I'm not despo :)

If I did sound despo, it's..... 30% true.

Reason: Becuz I'm turning 18 and my dad has been pestering me about why I no BF whenever he's drunk.

I should probably go find another foreveralone and go lim zui together.

ANYWAY AFTER 14 FEB,

Facebook will have all those annoying pictures of couples popping up in my newsfeed.

There'll be pics of polaroids, food, gifts from bf/gfs, etc.

Then I'll be sitting infront of my laptop screen with Facebook,

Anyway I will go cont my friday night now.

Until next time.

FK YOU ALL YOU PEOPLE WHO HAVE A DATE ON VALENTINES DAY, IMMA STAY HOME AND ROLL MYSELF INTO A BALL.

YES IM JEALOUS I ADMIT IT NOW.

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL, not.

天高地厚

K it's been kinda a long time since i've posted.

There're bound to be many valuable thoughts to be spoken but I forgot them all.

Let me just jot down some events before I go into talking about life again >_>

CNY eve:

Went to LX/LK's hse!

I brought my hwk over to do while the rest were having fun.

#lifeofajc2kid

I can tell that they're waiting for me to finish my work and then go play tgt.

Sadly, I took a long time to finish haha.

Introduced Werewolf to them, very fun but too bad we had too little people.

7 is just the min number to start playing Werewolf.

Then lou hei and played bridge,

had a hard time teaching.

Well, i took a very long time to learn too, haha.

CNY Day 1:

Went to TSL's hse, first thing I did when I reached there is to chiong for the Wii lol.

Even though I have a Wii at home, nothing beats playing with other people.

I didn't even bother to eat lol, all I did was to Mario and Band Hero.

Then idk do what and then LK suggested drinking games.

So we played drinking games like Indian Poker, etc etc.

I don't get how my dad can gulp down Beer like it's bubble tea lol.

But I must start drinking soon so next time I won't get into trouble.

COUGH.

We're all growing up quickly and I'm turning 18 this year.(gawd)

Usually it's just us 4 ah lians plus our ah gua LK.

Ok in the past he used to be the ah gua but now he's an 182cm uncle.

Tan's Blood haha, FOREVERALONE.

As we grew up, we got closer to other cousins as well,

like become more gum.

Foreveralone Tan Ah Lian(s)

Just to be an asshole, I photoshopped my sis's face

(you get what I mean)

Me and Fat Ah Lian.

Foreveralone!

My nephew Donavan!

I usually hate kids but he's an exception.

He likes me a lot wahahahahha.

Guess who?

It's the motherbeeping cat who always lurks around my corridor.

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Nathaniel's 18 Bday!

Surprise! (or not...)

Random Photo LOL

Maria does her work beside the fan, lucky woman.

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4th Feb:

Went to Alvin korkor's housewarming.

It feels kinda weird becuz he's the same Bei4 Fen4 as me and yet he's married and alrdy have a 3 yr old son, Donavan(who loves me a lot)

Ahhh, how time flies.

I didn't wanna go sing KTV after the housewarming at first,

but in the end I went lah...

Didn't regret going but also somehow regret lol.

Had lots of fun in the Ten Dollar Club @ Toa Payoh.

Waiting for LK to upload the video kekeke.

I don't understand how people go to KTV to train their singing.

Okay maybe I understand, everyone has a 明星梦 lah.

I'm not a good singer so I basically go to KTV and shout lol.

De-stress.

Sang all the chinese oldies that we listened to in our childhood.

唱出心声!

Ok yeah so ...

so far I'm still coping well with JC work, didn't lag behind for any subject.

But how long will this discipline last?

Hahahahah, there're bound to be weekends that I'll be occupied on both Sat and Sun,

then I can't complete my work and lag behind.

Finally I'm doing something in Eco Club,

for the past whole year, eco club feels like a place for me to stone.

I'm lagging behind Running Man, but I guess it's no problem because I can always find time in a empty weekend to catch up.

Hmmmmmmm,

I guess I'm in position to tell others what to do, do I?

I have probably enough issues to overwhelm myself,

sometimes I really wanna 见死不救 but can't bring myself to do it.

I've so many things I wanna say but I can't.

Ok so now's the time when I'll use short phrases to describe about the things I wanna say but I can't fully say it.

FUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOU, Time out, Sorry, Idiots, Okay..., Heh, WHY YOU...., bloody fking dumb, I don't live up to that, Do you even care, I get it now.

>_>

We should always be mindful of our body language, you'll never know how much body language can throw off someone into deep thoughts.

I'm totally in the mood of Lighters by Eminem.

You know, that kind of angry/unfair/standing up from all the crap mood.

我们还有很多梦要做，还有很多明天要走。

不能让我自己在这一刻被打倒，

勇敢站起来是对的，但我却想永远呆在这种地步，矛盾啊。

When your thoughts clash and you can't decide on which side to take.

明知道...

When you do something like that, it pisses me off, god damn badly.

能不能给我一个交待?

还是把这些事收进左边的口袋吧

GOD DAMN.

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Anyway there has been this random number from Taiwan which keeps calling my phone and looking for "ah qian".

Country code 886 wtf.

I wonder if Singtel leaks out customer info leh, really.

This never happened to me when I was still using starhub.

There has been many cases of unknown numbers calling my hp ever since I've started using singtel/iphone.

Maybe got some loser shit give a random number to ah long and just nice that random number belongs to me.

Idk.

Or maybe I had my old phone no. directed to my new phone and so there're ppl calling in.

But calling from Taiwan is not a valid reason.

There're like 8-9 calls alrdy.

zzzzzz.

Feel like picking up and saying in chinese/hokkien:

我不是你要找的人, 你爸爸！

K I rly donno what else to blog about anymore.

Will come back when time allows and when I have more things to say.

Probably just one of those periods when I feel very mixed up within and there's no time left for myself to think about things.